First post in a long time

A first post in a very long time. It's been nearly a year, and how far I've come within that year! After realizing that my ADD medicine made me pick more, I went off of it this last December.  My picking has decreased . by over half. Instead of picking at my skin, when I get the urge, I treat it, instead. If my skin starts feeling oily and gross, and I feel the urge to pick, or even go into the bathroom to look in the mirror, I  treat my skin with  witch-hazel and a gentle facial moisturizer. I've also noticed that shaving with soap on my legs causes them to break out in a reaction. I now only shave with water. I will catch myself picking from time to time, but only late at night, and I know that that's the cue for me to go to bed. The habit is slowly getting rid of itself, just like the one I had as a child, where I puled all my eyelashes out. My self-confidence is rising, and that makes for a much less-picky me.

Keep me in your prayers,

Elizabeth Foxx

Day 15

Dear Diary,

I know, I know. It's been a long time since I last wrote with my last update, but I've been busy with school and movie and so forth. I relapsed quite a bit when I first came back up to campus. I was sick this last weekend, and I didn't pick at all, which is a huge step for me, because usually I pick more if I don't feel well. My arms were nearly entirely clear, except today I picked a little bit on my shoulders. It's very minor, as far as picking goes, and it should be mostly cleared up by tomorrow. My face is clear though, and it's so nice! Keep me in your prayers as always,

Love,

Elizabeth

Day 14

Today was one of my better days. I was less tempted to pick and picked a lot less. It was a big accomplishment, considering that it was a stressful day that included a trip to the dentist and a filling. XD Sorry that I don't have too much to say. It's really late and I'm tired. I'll write again tomorrow. Hopefully I won't be so tired.

Keep me in your Prayers,

Elizabeth.

Day 13

Today has been rough. Granted that I haven't been picking as much, I always have the inner struggle with myself when I don't do as well as I wanted to. It's days like these that make me want to just throw in the towel and give up, but if other people can do it, then so can I. I've been though too much for so long to let something as little as a habit ruin my quality of life. No more sulking. Everyday is a new day, and every new day brings a new opportunity to better myself.

Keep me in your prayers,

Elizabeth.

Days 11 & 12

We're just passing the week and a half mark, and the going is getting rough, but I'm not giving in. My self-control is growing. I can feel it. But being back home poses new challenges. Being back home invites me to fall back into routine habits, such as night picking. So far that hasn't happened, but that doesn't mean it's easy. Keep me in your prayers as always.

Love,

Elizabeth.

Days 9 & 10

Day 9, as you may have guessed - no internet access at the hotel. Well, there was supposed to be, but it was only accessible in the lobby, where I really didn't feel like going to to write my personal blog in. So, I'll just catch you all up now.

Yesterday was a little rough, and though I found myself doing better today (I barely picked at all!) I'm finding myself growing lazy. Of course having 4 giant period zits on your face doesn't help the cause either! I've been leaving the zits alone for the most part. I did try to pop them briefly when we got to the hotel a short while ago, but I didn't torment them. Though I probably shouldn't have touched them at all, I'm glad that I am not so tempted to pick at them as much as I used to be. I try to pop them once, and if they don't, I leave them alone. Maybe my brain is finally starting to get the message that if I pick, my skin will get worse. I certainly hope so. This blog has helped me so much to keep my picking problem on the forefront of my mind. I often find myself forgetting about my recovery and  as a result, slipping deeper into the habit. Perhaps your prayers  have something to do with that. That is if anyone even reads this blog! XD Sometimes I have my doubts, but I like to pretend that people do, even if it is just to boost my ego.

Going home tomorrow. It was a great trip. We went to the Smoky Mountains, Virginia Beach, Shenandoah National Park, and loads of places in between! Busy week next week. Have to take my Hamster to the vet, I have to go to the Dr. and to the dentist, and then pack for going back to school next Saturday. Busy, busy, busy!

Until next time, keep me in your prayers.

Love,

Elizabeth. 

Days 6,7, and 8

So sorry for the delay, everyone! I was too tired on day 6 and no internet on day 7. These last few days have been rough, I'm not going to sugarcoat it. It's been stressful. Day 6 was probably my best day so far, though! I didn't pick at all and spent the entire day at the beach in my new 2 piece swimsuit. Day 7 was a roughest. I was stressed, and I kept catching myself picking. I've struggled a bit today, because I have 3 blind zits on my face, and they hurt so badly! I've been working very hard to keep my mind and my hands off of my skin and those zits. I'm making progress, and though I may have some rough days, I take heart in my strides forward and the promise of the future.

I don't know where I'll be tomorrow on this crazy road trip, so we'll see if I have access to the internet. If not, I'll just keep working on my writing.  I have written quite a bit over the last 3 days, more than I have in a long time. It sure keeps my hands busy!

Well, It's late and I'm very tired. Have a good night and a good day tomorrow, everyone. And as always, I ask that you continue to keep me in your prayers.

Love,

Elizabeth.